not enough

if courses were goals and goals were courses, if an university career was a hockey game, and a hockey game was an university career, then me and the senators would have a lot in common: making mistakes early on and then coming up short in a game of catch-up.

"you have come to a sad realization. cancel or allow." allow.

coldplay - fix you

you can want

spend a few hours this morning reading the hamilton spectator on microfilm today. although i found less than a 100 words of relevant information to my research project, i did see some interesting things.
like: "PMS is taken by courts as a justification for crimes committed in the UK" - May 27, 1981.

of course i forgot to bring the battery charger for my laptop and had to come home ... i am never going to be ready for exams. at least i am the trainwreck that the economics department thinks i should be. i fit the profile: great.

maria mena - just hold me

gameday: sens vs. isles. i hope the fact that i was reading about the NY Islanders winning the Stanley Cup in 1981 will not have any bearing on tonight's game. although the sens could use some luck.

GO SENS GO!

oh dear!

i don't want to whine or anything ... but it is only 9.30 tuesday morning, and i already managed to spill my entire coffee in a lecture hall ... it just trickled down to the front of the classroom to the professor. how embarassing. and what a waste of perfectly good coffee! i am not sure if should alert someone from the physical plant so it can be cleaned up ... but then again it seems that not many people would. aiaiai ... what a pickle. and now i am moving on without my coffee.

this sucks.

music: none. only the sound of a fan and computers in the computer lab.

impressions

now that i am sitting here on a sunday morning, eating pepernoten, i am thinking about the fact that i really should have written this post last night when my ears were still ringing and i was lying awake with the moon shining in my face. then i would have been somewhat productive. but maybe the fact that i came home to find out the senators had lost yet again to a no-good team had me shut down the computer, who i have named alfonzo americano, in disgust. so maybe when neither "darth gerber" or mr. swedish delight himself can/will bail out the team they are just average. nah ... i am talking nonsense. they are never just average. plus if they were playing just average it is because they have probably forgotten they needed to show some of the loyalty to their fans that we have shown them. relationships are hard work.

good thing it could not ruin a good night though, which included taking in a performance by the trans-siberian orchestra at copps coliseum. seeing that i am a newbie at all things concert, i have some many questions and thoughts about the concert. i want to know things like whether or not the stage belongs to the band, what they do in the summer, whether or not they have health problems from being subjected to the lighting all the time, etc. but really, at some point i was sure that the guitarists were not actually playing because they were running up and down the stage, throwing their heads up and down and ... well everything else they do on guitar hero. it just seems so impossible to still be able to play so well and synchronized ....

i had a great time just watching the constructions in the air as part of the lightshow. or the the lightshow itself i am convinced would have to have been constructed by geniuses, with a lot of imagination, and taste for colour. i mean the constructions looked like spaceships in a sky filled with stars. cool!

altogether though it was such a good mix of funny, and touching. the narrative that played throughout the first half was the story of christmas eve. although it is too long to reiterate, there was a subtle message against terrorism. it was very touching that the narrator described the ruins in the middle east on christmas eve from which one chello played ... which then moved into one of greatest performances of carol of the bells.

this video is from this year's performance in pittsburgh, and was very similar to the one in hamilton. it includes parts of a number of songs, but was very entertaining:


i also really loved the drummer solo. like really really loved it. i mean, no one normal person should be able to move that fast ... no joke.

about halfway of the show, one of the lead guitarists? vocalists? ( i don't really know because they all look the same) came out wearing a leafs jersey, number 13 to be exact, and the ensuing ensemble of cheers and boos was quite funny. i think i performed my duty of boo-ing as loud as i could, while the guys in front of us looked back at the loud and mixed response of 6 girls behind them. we are a house divided.

allright these were just some of my thoughts about last night. would definitely recommend seeing it. to anyone.

remy zero - fair
tso - carol of the bells

ps. vote pizza line and volchenkov for the all-star game in atlanta.

i dont know what you are talking about ...

while i am trying to finish a 15 page paper tonight, i had to make a quick comment:

it sounds like someone is being slaughtered downstairs, while i am listening to sil tu me amas - il divo. it adds a lot of drama, and i feel like a helpless bystander.

that someone - by the way - is the ottawa senators who are playing the buffalo sabres tonight, which is on tsn, and half the house is watching. i am missing it, but then maybe the memory will only be the sounds, not supplemented with video evidence. this way i can more easily pretend it never happened.

muse - sing for absolution

surprise

i am getting my ass kicked. and frankly i don't like it.

never take poli sci 3e03. love the class. hate the assignment.



i know nothing much about music and guitars. but i really like this.

i also have a quite well known affection for the numbers 9 and 19.

i copied this image from ottawacitizen.com, which me quite happy for the aforementioned reason.

i was so bored at the library today, that i took a picture of the orange carpet at thode with my webcam. i got some funny looks of people as they walked by and saw themselves on my screen. hehe.

mark cohn - life goes on

y

our men in france often feel homesick

"we learn from history that we learn nothing from history" george bernard shaw.


this is actually helpful now: realism or neorealism? realism. because mankind is not rational.

tidbits

essaying ... or trying to.

i dove into a pool of IR theories, and i think i am drowning because neorealism is really pulling me down.

i try. and now i am wondering if i am in the camp of meliorists or not at all.

yesterday's class of public expenditures began with this exact question: "how much are cows worth these days?" and then "does anyone here have any cows?" i especially enjoyed the guesstimations of the class, which then ensued in a discussion of "cow farms."

i maintain that everyone should vote for the NHL all star team, if only because a free subscription to XM satellite radio for a couple of weeks. i have been listening to starbucks fm cafe, and am enjoying the selection of music. i just thought of a nice formula to represent my utility levels for starbucks that includes some variable to subtract the fact it is american, but now i am thinking i dont want to embarass myself too much, or be so nerdy. already did? dang.
i love the fact that the station has a show called "the daily grind," very witty. now if only i could be productive i would be a happy camper.

the interview.

tom petty and the heartbreakers - i'm walkin'
mark cohn - life goes on
iron and wine - carried home
wilco - on and on and on
crowded house - four seasons in one day
shane nicholson - safe and sound

getting excited for battle of ontario round 4. go sens go.

when it gets to you

i thought this was a pretty cool desktop background ...

warning: this is a random posting. i will not be held responsible for any utterings of sorts.

i blame facebook for making me think of "gesiena is ...." everytime i try to think of something to post.

yikes i just looked sideways and paul walker is seriously staring at me. i think i should consider readjusting the pictures on my wall again.

based on a discussion i had with a friend today i am really curious to know whether or not there are any cowboys in holland. i am thinking not.

and ... happy birthday julie!

Stars - HYMNE (vangelis)

on a hockey note ...

"allright then. i guess i should be happy because the thrashers fans are happy. i guess i should be happy because the capitals fans are happy. i guess i should be happy because the hurricanes fans are happy. i guess i should be happy because the canadiens fans are happy. i guess i should be happy because the bruins fans are happy. but i am not really feeling it. but then again it is just a game. or not? i can't really decide. am sure hoping that the above list does not get any longer."

i wrote this exactly one year ago, (when almost every post was about hockey) ... two things are for sure: 1. time flies. 2. time heals all wounds, because we all know in the end it was not so bad ... now why did i look this up? i am just a tad bitter about them losing today. even if i did not watch. or listen. or follow it.

whatever. i need to study.

sum 41 - with me

things that make you go "hmmm ... " [1]

"In God's Name" - religion and public life in theeconomist.com (note the column on the right with links to a number of articles)

sweetening my weekend

this team, captained by mr swedish delight (left), will be enjoying the services of both right and centre for many more years. i think this officially means i can buy a spezza jersey.

i love canada. i love hockey. (go back two years and you would not have caught me saying that)

matchbox twenty - bent

confessions

if you knew i was in economics you would have thought i was smarter than this. i mean i should be the queen of efficiency and productivity. but here you have it. the truth is uncovered. i am not:
(now that i think of it, it should not really surprise anyone, especially when you realize that stephen harper, or peter george have economics degrees, and what do they get done? exactly.)

Go Sens Go (Hockey Night in Canada)


i have a few obsessions. and (rightly so) the sens are near the top of the list. oh and in line with my (strange) habit (disease?) of listening to the same song all day long here you have it for today:
(really too bad youtube does not have a repeat button .... or that i feel so guilty about downloading free music ... )

One Republic ft. Timbaland - I apologize

university 101: always carry an umbrella

i am thankful for many many things. but especially today:
- for long legs and being able to jump over or around puddles
- for ending class early so i have time to grab a cup of coffee between classes
- for discovering a subject that i really enjoy: intellectual property protection (i know!)
- for saying that i will go swimming, and then actually doing it
- music.

aqualung - something to believe in

i like ...

the song. not sure about the video though.

matt kearney - breathe in, breathe out

sooooo distracted.

measuring progress by word counts and nutrition by peanut butter and jam sandwiches, and sanity by the cups of coffee.

where is my mind? in Funk-ytown

so i just looked up from writing my paper and thought there was a fish swimming in my water bottle.

yikes.

have been completely overwhelmed with schoolwork, and completely distracted by life. but had the chance to see the home opener of the hamilton bulldogs last night a la second row. it was a great game, and a nice ceremony, with the anthems performed by hamilton's own: brian melo. my throat is not feeling all that happy, but i love it when the crowd gets loud, so i do my part ... and more. funk alert!

back to my book report on Nature's Metropolis. fabulous book. too bad i need to go through it so many times that i will hate it when i am done.

a bit more catchy - special d.

and ... go sens go!

listen.

study. repeat. study. repeat. study. repeat.
study some more. and then repeat some more.

three days grace - wicked game

interesting development?

it seems that election day has a chilling effect on ontario, as the temperature went from some 30 degrees to 13 degrees in just 24 hours.

this is as much of a political rant i can get going:
although i hope dalton mcguinty does not get re-elected, there is one clear advantage he has over ... let's say, john tory: choice of hockey team. other than that there is nothing much to say about politics right now because at election time it seems that political affiliation is a commodity that can be bought and sold, and right: it isn't. so much for democracy. i think i am going to skip the election show and study tonight instead, while checking nhl scoresheets repeatedly.


blah ... i hate the smell of popcorn.

trans siberian orchestra - carol of the bells. i know it is early but could we not skip halloween altogether? but seriously: to go or not to go?

at the next high school reunion ....

.... i won't be a country rock star like some of us (Welcome to Jeff Catto On-Line) ... but maybe i will have some fun stories to tell, and accomplishments to share.

yeah. i have that kind of confidence.


this song has been in my head all day: andre hazes en gerard joling - blijf bij me, which instantly makes me think of this song: lange fraas en baas b - het land van.


while i was on the bus the other day, an older lady started talking to me about my t-shirt. i was wearing a "the doors" t-shirt, that i had once picked up at bluenotes for less than $5. she told me i had very good taste, and continued talking about the band, and how my parents must have been big fans. when i told her they were more into country, she shook her head, and applauded me for making much better choices .... thing is: i haven't listened to most of their music, and could not tell you one thing about the band. i was really sweating it for minute ... serves me right though, i suppose.

a friend of mine shared this with me. i love the part where luxembourg gets beat up. hmm .. i should really try to figure out how to paste the actual thing here, rather than link it. yeah ... about that.

odds and ends

"Great is the LORD, and most worthy of praise, in the city of our God, his holy mountain" Psalm 48:1

age: 21 years and two days and counting. i am so thankful for all the messages and e-mails-> and even more thankful for those 21 years of many many blessings.

i have a lot of readings to do, so i will have to pass on the marauders-geegees game today (which i had been wanting to attend), but i am sure i will find other ways to prohibit myself from having a particularly productive day.

officially, the 2007-2008 hockey season has begun 2 minutes ago, in london, england, and is actually aired on the cbc. too bad i still have to wait 4 days before i can get really excited about it (msg me if you are interested in joining for a "beginning of the season beer and pizza" part-ay) in the meantime there is lots of news and season previews on youtube.com although i have to say there are none that i particularly like, but it is fun to re-live the exciting plays from last year anyways.

the decemberists - here i dreamt i was an architect

steven sufjan - chicago

i think i will have to put my feet up, read my readings, and enjoy a fabulous cup of coffee in an even more fabulous mug. and maybe think of something useful to say and post for the next time ... maybe.